He
Who knocks to my door
Lighten up my heart and
Brighten up my day
An angel in a form of a man
In disguise, but I can see through him
Hiding, but visible in my eyes
He made a road through my cloudy mind
And made everything clear
He
Who calms my soul
Seeing his smile
Hearing his voice
Like a rhythm I can't get enough
A melody I'll long for
A bittersweet feeling I'll be holding on
The one I'll keep searching for.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Friday, January 2, 2015
Story
Different people, different lives, different experiences, different stories. How do we deal with it? ...with our lives, other people's lives, how we feel, how we show what we want to say and how we want others to feel. Sharing. We can choose whether we want our stories to be known to others; or just be another person in the crowd. Though you may not know it, your story may change other people; on how they live, and how they handle their lives. It may be just another story to you but it can be more to them. It can be an inspiration, to live another day, to give them hope that they've given up just before your story is known.
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Options
When you work hard to have what you dreamed of and you got it, it makes you happy, right? But, what if life just wants you to have a taste of it? That life gives you so many options you're not wishing for right on your face, and you, there... trying to hold on on what you know will make you happy. What if life is showing you options that you deserve even more than what you wanted? Will you go for it or will you hold onto your dream?
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Hidden
I'm just an ordinary girl.
I always smile.
I always laugh.
I always do what they want.
Living the way they wanted.
I never complain.
I never did.
They see me as a cheerful and kind person.
What they didn't know is that deep inside i feel hurt.
I feel like dying.
That when I wake up every morning, I pray that the day would just end.
That everything will be over.
I'm not kind.
Really not.
I wanted to hurt anyone that comes my way.
And I don't care who that person is.
But... I really can't do anything.
I'm hurting inside.
Yes.
But.
What if.
That person is suffering more than I already am.
I don't know his story.
And I don't want anyone to know mine.
So.
I'll just have to bare with it.
And just hide what I feel.
I always smile.
I always laugh.
I always do what they want.
Living the way they wanted.
I never complain.
I never did.
They see me as a cheerful and kind person.
What they didn't know is that deep inside i feel hurt.
I feel like dying.
That when I wake up every morning, I pray that the day would just end.
That everything will be over.
I'm not kind.
Really not.
I wanted to hurt anyone that comes my way.
And I don't care who that person is.
But... I really can't do anything.
I'm hurting inside.
Yes.
But.
What if.
That person is suffering more than I already am.
I don't know his story.
And I don't want anyone to know mine.
So.
I'll just have to bare with it.
And just hide what I feel.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Just wandering
1 year and 4 months...
And I just realized that I've been waking every morning wishing for the day to end.
I dont know why but I'm not looking forward into anything...
Feels like a zombie wandering around...
I just do what needs to be done...
Someday... Oneday... Hopefully sooner than what I've wished for...
I wanna feel what it's like to wake up and wish for the day to be long enough to do all the things I want, for the time to be so slooooooooow I can have more time to love and treasure every second of my life.
I wanna wake up oneday and be thankful of who I am, what I have, what I can give, and what I can do.
Don't get me wrong... I'm really thankful now but I'm not that happy.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
New start
New hospital, new environment, new rules,and new people to please.
I started my volunteer work at Evangelista Medical last monday. I'd really love to say NO but I cant do anything. Before we were given the schedule for our rotation, I wished that my first area would be OR (Operating room) and OB-Peds (obstetric and pediatric ward) would be the last. But HEY! It's funny how life works, giving you first what you dont wished for, then later if you deserved it, you'll get what you've wanted. The two areas just got switched!
1st. I am overwhelmed by the doors. I'm not used to it. I'm used seeing my patients all at once. :))
2nd. toxicity is my buddy. haha! 1st day = toxic.. the 2nd = toxic.. and the 3rd was hell. haha!! Incident report on my 3rd day?! that fast?! haha! I'll just laugh it off.
3rd. Why am I always A.L.O.N.E?! *sigh* I'll just need to get used to it.
Lookin' forward for tomorrow! What will happen next? ahaha!
I started my volunteer work at Evangelista Medical last monday. I'd really love to say NO but I cant do anything. Before we were given the schedule for our rotation, I wished that my first area would be OR (Operating room) and OB-Peds (obstetric and pediatric ward) would be the last. But HEY! It's funny how life works, giving you first what you dont wished for, then later if you deserved it, you'll get what you've wanted. The two areas just got switched!
1st. I am overwhelmed by the doors. I'm not used to it. I'm used seeing my patients all at once. :))
2nd. toxicity is my buddy. haha! 1st day = toxic.. the 2nd = toxic.. and the 3rd was hell. haha!! Incident report on my 3rd day?! that fast?! haha! I'll just laugh it off.
3rd. Why am I always A.L.O.N.E?! *sigh* I'll just need to get used to it.
Lookin' forward for tomorrow! What will happen next? ahaha!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Sigh
*sigh* Reality should stop. I'm not enjoying life anymore.
*sigh* Been doing things JUST because I HAVE TO OR I NEED TO.. not because I WANT TO. And I'm not happy about it. Really, NO! But, what can I do? :(
*sigh*
*sigh* Been doing things JUST because I HAVE TO OR I NEED TO.. not because I WANT TO. And I'm not happy about it. Really, NO! But, what can I do? :(
*sigh*
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