live others dream

When we were still kids, we were asked what we wanted to be in the future. Now that we've known what we wanted and what to do with our lives, they're the ones making the decision for us. It's so hard to live other peoples dream. But do I seriously have a choice? *sigh*

October 24'12

Today, October 24, 2012, marks yet another day of being on the same country, same place, breathing the same freakin' air, with one of my favorite boygroups and not freakin' able to see them. THAT. IS. HEART. BREAKING. I cant do anything about it because my parents wont allow me and I dont have enough money to buy a ticket. -_- The  thought of being in the same place with your bias and you're just few meters away from him, that's a WoW moment. But not being able to see him in that short distance, that's an Aww moment. You'll only got the chance to 'just wish' and dream the 'what ifs'.

It's also betty's birthday~:) we had our dinner at pizza hut. Juu's not there... -- she's freakin watching the concert!!! while we- her friends- was inside the mall taking about how the concert will go. -___- great right? oh well, I'm just glad it's not b2utiful show. haha~

Reality, Kpop, LIFE

My parents are asking me... Why and what do I love about kpop?

     Simple. I'm envy them. Not because they can sing in front of so many people (like I want to.. thanks, but no thanks ;D.. though I really wanna try it some other time). Not because of their music. Definitely not the lyrics. Not because they're famous and can be seen on TV. Not because the world know they exist. Not because they can travel around the world to have their tours, promotions, or concerts (though that's also one of the reasons XD). Not because they can buy expensive just-got-released-gadgets and stuff. And definitely no because of their pretty face ans body.

     Do you really wanna know? It's because of the fact that they're living their dream (their OWN dream) and here I am living somebody else dream. I envy them. They can do things they really want to do for the rest of their lives. While I, myself, need to accept the fact that I won't be that "SOMEONE" whom I really want to be. Now, I should start accepting the fact that I would be living a life where I'd be that "someone" I wouldn't even dreamed of being (even for a thousand times). I'm jealous because they got the chance to live their dream while I'm here, stuck in the middle of something called reality. Where you're expected to do what others want and just stop dreaming of becoming the person you want to be, 'coz no matter what you do, you won't get the chance to.

     I can listen to their sermon (or whatever the hell you call that) the whole day, do things they want me to do, as long as they would let me do the things I love. I can handle the hardships just to reach MY dream, but to struggle and hold on the pain to reach the top because someone else dreams of me becoming "that kind" of person and "that kind" of career... THAT'S. JUST. HELL!! *sigh* It's so hard to live in the reality where you were expected to be that "someone" you were expected to be. Sometimes, I want to tell them I can't bear doing the things they want me to, but do I seriously have a choice? I bet they wouldn't even let me take a course that doesn't have a degree. *sigh* well, that's life. Hmm.. let me correct that--- that's what you call: REALITY (other term: HELL).

It's hard to live other peoples' dream. So if you had the chance, go live your own.

Kids

I hate kids. -__-

They are so ANNOYING. really.

it's like::: COULD YOU STOP BOTHERING ME?!?! I'm working on something!

arrrrrggggghhhhhh~~

Right now.. there's two kids beside me..

really..these kids should stop what they're doing before I lose my temper.. -__- 

annoying.. annooooying... ANNOYIIIIIIIIIING.

Graduate. BSN. 2012.

Officially a NURSE.

First of all... God, Thank you. I really wouldn't make it without you. To my parents, Thank you for all the support. I love you (really.. although I'm not really making you feel it... still.. I do.) 

alright... now.. I need to review for my board exam on july. Hope I'll make it. T^T

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I just did what I was told to even though I know what I really wanted.

Nursing is not even in my option.

LIST: fashion design, interior design, culinary arts...

in the  line of medicine.. I want to be a surgeon.. well, that wont happen.. XD

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I'll make sure that someday...

I'm going to have a restaurant, bakeshop & coffee shop, and BOUTIQUE.

That's my goal.

Photoshoot for Graduation

 Dora, Betty and I

Wae is betty so cute?! :))

..wanna take her home~

<--MJ

one of The Boys

Nikki, Bebs, Betty, Rach, Me and Joy

Our filipiniana 

ah, jeongmal... wae is betty so cute?

 

My Friends

 We'll be nurses soon!!

That's me and Joy

our creative dresses

She hate pink.. ke~ she has no choice but to wear it.. haha!!

FUTURE NURSES!

Girls

Girls.
You'll see them wearing dresses, skirts & hanging shirts. You'll see them wearing make-up everyday.. eye liner, blush on, & glittery eye shadow. You'll see them at every clothing store fitting every dress that they like. Buying high heel shoes not less than 5 inches. They are vain! They love to shop. They love upgrading themselves every month and some of them.. everyday! They love to style their hair~ braid it, curl it, or pull it up.


Mom said that I should be like them.. I should wear skirts, dress, and super mega high heels!! ><


I'm sorry but I'm not like them.. I'm not that kind of girl. It's okay if I don't wear those clothes or heels. I'd rather wear jeans and slippers/rubber shoes. It's okay if I don't wear any make-up. Those girls, they're just applying make up to hid their pimples and imperfections. I'd be glad if everyone accept me for what I look like. I'd rather let them see my bare face than cover it with lots of chemicals. You'll always see me putting my hair up in a bun. Yeah Yeah.. girls love curls, but not me. Girls love putting their straight hair down but not me. I don't like my hair brushing all over my face.


I dont act like a girly girl. I act how I want to. If I want to run.. I'll hold your hand and run as fast as I can. I love to run (that's why I seldom wear high heels).


Girls! Be yourself.

양요섭!! 생일축하해!! 사랑해~

양요섭!! 생일축하해!! 사랑해~

Translation:

Yang YoSeob!! Happy Birthday!!I

Yeah~ That's him.. hahaha!!

#HappySeobDay

Yearbook Write-up

I never thought it's so hard to write something about oneself.. :))

Before.. what I know is that all questions about you (myself) is so easy to answer.. but what's happening now is a disaster.. haha!! Just a simple question as describe yourself / what are your positive and negative traits are so hard to answer.. It's like I dont know myself.. This is making me crazy!!!! ahh~~ Jeongmal..

Can someone describe me? Jebal~~~ I dont know who I am.. hahaha~~ Maybe someone knew me better than myself. XD

Been doing my write-up since this morning.. it's already 8:16PM.. and still.. I CANT ANSWER THAT QUESTIONS!!!! HELP!! :))

I'm checking my FB and Twitter from time to time.. and all i can see is post/tweets of my other classmates about those questions.. haha~~ everyone's dying because of it.. XD tomorrow is our deadline and I hope I can finish this on time.. hahaha~~ 

Miss my Bestfriend

awww~~~

I miss my bestfriend... I really miss her..

I've been organizing my things yesterday and I found a letter.

That letter was given to me 5-6 years ago by my bestfriend...

while reading it, I realized I've forgotten some of the things we talked about.

like the nickname CARROT... I'm really puzzled who that person is.. hahaha

I cant remember him... (yeah HIM..)

I'm laughing and smiling to myself while reading it. I love reading letters. Especially when it came from someone sooooooo special to me.. :D

more letters please~~ :))

I saw Hyukjae

I thought... I will never meet even a single member of super junior. Who would have thought that I'd be meeting 3 of them.. hahaha~~ (10 more to go..)

.. Yesterday, I woke up 5AM. That's too early for me. I usually wake up around 10am-12nn. I dont know why but I did some stretching then took a bath. I logged on to twitter and see if Siwon( member of super junior) is already here in the Philippines. The moment he tweeted, I searched for the hotel in the picture.. It took me HOURS before I found it. It's already 8AM by that time. My dad gave me sandwich. PH ELFS are tweeting where Siwon is. They took a pic.. and HEY! THERE'S EUNHYUK AND KYUHYUN!!! (2 members of super junior) =D Just knowing hyukkie is here too... well, that made my day. After the 1st venue (EASTWOOD), they're going to MACAPAGAL. 'WHAT?!?! MACAPAGAL?!?! AS IN MOA?! SEASIDE?!?!'- *SHOCK* (yeah, really, coz there's where my school is.. macapagal blvd. XD ) I texted duraii.. well, just to let her know.. haha~ what's her reply? 'LEGGO!*' As soon as I read her reply, I immediately change my clothes. within 10 mins, I'm ready to go. excited? YES! VERY! :)) 

.. When I got there, where the 3 members of suju is, WOAH!! There's a hell of a crowd!! I met duraii and trish there. They were wearing BLUE. and I'm wearing VIOLET. hahaha~~ Blue is the color of suju, that's why. I saw hyuk, kyu and siwon from afar. They were a hundred meters from where I'm standing.. haha~ but who cares?! At least I saw them with my own eyes~~ There are rules.. 1.NO CAMERAS.. 2.BE QUIET.. -->are the rules that hard to follow? no, right? they are just simple rules.. yet PH ELFS cant do it.. -__- If PH ELFS behave, the 3 members of suju will greet and thank the PH ELFS for the award they received. Then the moment comes.. Suju is less than 10 meters away from us.. when a 'freakin fangirl' run and hugged kyu (or should I say ATTACKED KYU?). -___- suju ran to the bus and just waved at us. They leave and went to the next destination (INTRAMUROS.. I wish I could come but I cant.. T^T). The only thing I remember is hyuk's SMILE. very bright smile. gosh.. I wish I could take him home.. hahaha~~ He's so handsome~~ The chance to see his face from a closer distance? -GONE. That's because of the freakin girl.. Now, PH ELFS cant get over with it.. haha~ It's as if they had the chance to meet suju face-to-face but because of a wrong move they may never see them EVER again.. haha~

.. 1st time and may also be the last time to see hyukkie.. sad. But what can I do? XD

.. A good start for 2012.. MORE blessings to come~ pls? BEAST will be having their tour and Philippines is one of the destination. pls. LET ME see them.. meet them.. even for once. I'm not asking for something so expensive. All I want to have is the feeling of bliss.